2009.07.27 07:26
Just for the heck of it.. I just got back from
driving around with Kibum and Jungmo
allthewhile only playing tons of meloncholgy songs
After I came back a little while ago, I turned on the internet
and typed in the name 'Kim Heechul'
it might seem funny but.. I haven't searched for my name
before.. almost never..
how should I put it.. it seems unbecoming and..
except for game sites, I don't go on the internet..
Also, it's better not to read any internet posts at all..
is what I thought..
because I received so much insults against my family
when I first debuted(-┏)
Then about 4 years? It's been more than 4 years..
for the first time in a long while, I read various posts
posts about me.. related search items.. new stories..
surprising posts..
I went into blogs.. pictures of me that I didn't know about..
incidents related to me..
It made me think.. I really receive a lot of love
It's difficult to say thanks.. I was someone who was
embarrassed even to just hear the words, but..
even though it made me squirm a bit..ㅋ I thought..
folks are gracious enough to like me a lot
And through other people, I visited various cafes
Because my password is always changed..
it's difficult for me to join using my own
The saddest thing is that even if I change my phone number,
everyone seems to know (the new number) within 24 hours..
Anyways, the thing I realized after visiting all sorts of cafes..
there are a lot of people who really dislike me also..
is what I thoughtㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Even from an early age, I was a kid who divided people's
opinions (likes and dislikes) so.. I laughed a bit
'Even getting older, nothing's changed'
Today was a day that I didn't have any energy so
I feebly read posts about myself..
There were a lot of posts that made me frown, but
there were also posts that made fun of me and yet still
contained some senseㅋㅋ
##################### << thisㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
There were nicknames that had originality
and some that were experts of language..ㅋ
That's not to say that they were good(-┏)
It made me feel bad, but it was a bit humorousㅋㅋ
If I say that it's true, are you going to say that it's true..
and if I say it's not true, are you going to say it's not?^-^
I opened up both the fan cafe and anti cafe at the same time
and went back and forth from one to another ..
before I could get a sense that I liked or disliked something,
the one thing that came to my mind
'Being alive in itself is really something to be happy about..'
why.. you know the feeling.. being really happy just to be
breathing..
I want to be able to go on a trip by myself..
a place with a mountain where a river flows..
There are often times when I look at the clouds moving
above the sky and stare blankly without a thought
and times when I stare intensely at the hands on a clock..
lately I've been doing that a lot
I no longer have any pictures to post on my minihompy..
and it's been a long time since I've taken a self-camera pic..
Having to change my password often.. getting hacked..
I thought of getting rid of my hompy..
Oftentimes I talk to my fans about this and that
I guess it's something obvious, but..
they absolutely won't let me get rid of it(-┏)
My childhood friends have gotten married and..
have cute babies.. now I have kids who call me uncle^-^
'Who am I going to get married to in the future..',
'Am I going to be able to get married..'
I don't know when, but the feeling of loving someone has
faded
my heart beating faster.. butterflies.. heart being cold..
all those feelings have disappeared..
Drinking soju at home alone
because I don't like places with a lot of people..
Smoking a cigarette after quitting.. then quitting..
then smoking.. then quitting again..
Getting older and wiser..
doesn't always seem to be a good thing
My eyes which should look to the future
keeps getting entangled in only reminiscence..
There was a book that I was writing while carrying
around my laptop
The title 'Sellectice and His Friend Karrion'
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
It contained things I wrote when I was young and
things that I thought about
Of course, it all disappeared when I got in the accident..ㅋㅋ
I like writing so much so that it's still a dream of mine
Saying that I have a 'dream'..
it seems somewhat awkward and a bit silly
Right now
I've been writing this post for nearly 3 hours..ㅋ
listening to this song and that..
looking outside then looking at Heebum..
Right now Choi Jae Hoon-nim's
'잊을 수 없는 너 (You Whom I Can't Forget)' is playing
I bought this latest album too.. Choi Jae Hoon-nim whose
songs are extremely touching..
별리 (Separation), 안녕 (Goodbye), 널 보낸 후에 (After Letting
You Go), 마지막 비 (Last Rain), 슬픈 운명 (Sad Destiny)
etc. etc..ㅠ_ㅠ
FT Island's '사랑하지마요 (Don't Love)' is playing nowㅋㅋ
Every time I meet Hongki, I always ask him to sing thisㅋㅋ
Difficult incidents, sad incidents, depressing incidents,
hurtful incidents, wounding incidents..
Even though it's a life overflowing with pain..
I would like you to always smile^-^
The final song.. might it not be a pain that we all are
afflicted with..
Lee Seung Hwan-nim's '심장병 (Heart Disease)' .............^-^
For Heenim who doesn't have very many docile/gentle days
during 365 days, it was a docile/gentle day!!
Just for the heck of it.. I just got back from
driving around with Kibum and Jungmo
allthewhile only playing tons of meloncholgy songs
After I came back a little while ago, I turned on the internet
and typed in the name 'Kim Heechul'
it might seem funny but.. I haven't searched for my name
before.. almost never..
how should I put it.. it seems unbecoming and..
except for game sites, I don't go on the internet..
Also, it's better not to read any internet posts at all..
is what I thought..
because I received so much insults against my family
when I first debuted(-┏)
Then about 4 years? It's been more than 4 years..
for the first time in a long while, I read various posts
posts about me.. related search items.. new stories..
surprising posts..
I went into blogs.. pictures of me that I didn't know about..
incidents related to me..
It made me think.. I really receive a lot of love
It's difficult to say thanks.. I was someone who was
embarrassed even to just hear the words, but..
even though it made me squirm a bit..ㅋ I thought..
folks are gracious enough to like me a lot
And through other people, I visited various cafes
Because my password is always changed..
it's difficult for me to join using my own
The saddest thing is that even if I change my phone number,
everyone seems to know (the new number) within 24 hours..
Anyways, the thing I realized after visiting all sorts of cafes..
there are a lot of people who really dislike me also..
is what I thoughtㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Even from an early age, I was a kid who divided people's
opinions (likes and dislikes) so.. I laughed a bit
'Even getting older, nothing's changed'
Today was a day that I didn't have any energy so
I feebly read posts about myself..
There were a lot of posts that made me frown, but
there were also posts that made fun of me and yet still
contained some senseㅋㅋ
##################### << thisㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
There were nicknames that had originality
and some that were experts of language..ㅋ
That's not to say that they were good(-┏)
It made me feel bad, but it was a bit humorousㅋㅋ
If I say that it's true, are you going to say that it's true..
and if I say it's not true, are you going to say it's not?^-^
I opened up both the fan cafe and anti cafe at the same time
and went back and forth from one to another ..
before I could get a sense that I liked or disliked something,
the one thing that came to my mind
'Being alive in itself is really something to be happy about..'
why.. you know the feeling.. being really happy just to be
breathing..
I want to be able to go on a trip by myself..
a place with a mountain where a river flows..
There are often times when I look at the clouds moving
above the sky and stare blankly without a thought
and times when I stare intensely at the hands on a clock..
lately I've been doing that a lot
I no longer have any pictures to post on my minihompy..
and it's been a long time since I've taken a self-camera pic..
Having to change my password often.. getting hacked..
I thought of getting rid of my hompy..
Oftentimes I talk to my fans about this and that
I guess it's something obvious, but..
they absolutely won't let me get rid of it(-┏)
My childhood friends have gotten married and..
have cute babies.. now I have kids who call me uncle^-^
'Who am I going to get married to in the future..',
'Am I going to be able to get married..'
I don't know when, but the feeling of loving someone has
faded
my heart beating faster.. butterflies.. heart being cold..
all those feelings have disappeared..
Drinking soju at home alone
because I don't like places with a lot of people..
Smoking a cigarette after quitting.. then quitting..
then smoking.. then quitting again..
Getting older and wiser..
doesn't always seem to be a good thing
My eyes which should look to the future
keeps getting entangled in only reminiscence..
There was a book that I was writing while carrying
around my laptop
The title 'Sellectice and His Friend Karrion'
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
It contained things I wrote when I was young and
things that I thought about
Of course, it all disappeared when I got in the accident..ㅋㅋ
I like writing so much so that it's still a dream of mine
Saying that I have a 'dream'..
it seems somewhat awkward and a bit silly
Right now
I've been writing this post for nearly 3 hours..ㅋ
listening to this song and that..
looking outside then looking at Heebum..
Right now Choi Jae Hoon-nim's
'잊을 수 없는 너 (You Whom I Can't Forget)' is playing
I bought this latest album too.. Choi Jae Hoon-nim whose
songs are extremely touching..
별리 (Separation), 안녕 (Goodbye), 널 보낸 후에 (After Letting
You Go), 마지막 비 (Last Rain), 슬픈 운명 (Sad Destiny)
etc. etc..ㅠ_ㅠ
FT Island's '사랑하지마요 (Don't Love)' is playing nowㅋㅋ
Every time I meet Hongki, I always ask him to sing thisㅋㅋ
Difficult incidents, sad incidents, depressing incidents,
hurtful incidents, wounding incidents..
Even though it's a life overflowing with pain..
I would like you to always smile^-^
The final song.. might it not be a pain that we all are
afflicted with..
Lee Seung Hwan-nim's '심장병 (Heart Disease)' .............^-^
For Heenim who doesn't have very many docile/gentle days
during 365 days, it was a docile/gentle day!!
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